Not many people are reading this right now, but it’s nice to think that maybe someday somebody might care enough to read this. Now I first want to start off saying i’m not suicidal, i don’t cut myself.. That’s not my thing, I just hide. My friends wouldn’t know that i hurt inside, i just smile and it’s all good. I’m just tired, you know? of pretending everything is fine.. I’ve been thinking to myself when i’m around people “just smile and nod.. they’ll move on and i can go home and crawl in my bed and hug my pillow”. So this is what i’ve written about how i feel, i hope some might feel the same so I don’t feel alone… 

“You know what amazes me the most? We were born into this backward, fucked-up world, and we were told right from the start that we should understand that this was the way things are. And you know that our mothers and fathers- out of love and fear- taught us how to nod and smile, because if we did not we were alienated. If you nodded and smiled, chances were, you just might survive this world. But some of us boys and girls grew into men and women who took everything we were taught and threw it away. Because we knew in our hearts that it was not right. That somehow we could see past the fear and insecurities, and we could hope. We took the hope that we could be different and still be loved. That’s us. Smart enough to see through the lies. Strong enough to stand tall despite the fear. So proud we’d rather be alienated then to conform. So full of hope.”

Thanks <3.